Finally made it - hello and welcome. Thanks very much to VofT for your contributions - more later. The presentation? It went very well - I thought. One 'problem' is that, years ago [when I was in a youth organisation], I was taught to give presentations in a certain way. Margaret Thatcher used to use the same 'style'. 'Tell 'em what you are going to tell 'em', 'Tell 'em', 'Tell 'em what you have told 'em' [or something like that] - it has always stuck with me. So it came to pass. I know, deep down, it all went well. I am a touch concerned, however, that it might be viewed as formal and not 'touchy - feely' enough. Perhaps the presentation should have been more a discussion than a lecture? Too late now. We shall have to wait and see.
Today has been a mammoth effort working on one of my reports [the more complex one - as indeed I was last night - that's why there was no post yesterday, sorry]. I will not get it finished tonight, as I had hoped, - the report, so far, is reasonably 'tidy' but I need to do some more reading to, hopefully, get it finished by the weekend. It's due in at the end of May [as is another report - yet to be started].
Good news! Those amongst you that recall my birthday [end of Feb.], will recall that, having reached a certain age, my 'frozen' pension was increased and will rise each year, in line with inflation. Pay day today and there was another increase! Yeah!! Increase #1, a one-off, occurred on my birthday and, today, was the annual increase - not a lot but, as The Senior always reminds me: 'it's an income, better than a bill' - so true. The other money, that I am owed, will not be in the bank [hopefully!] until mid May - watch this space #2.
It's a fact - I am, so others inform me, a 'self harmer' - I don't mean to make light of this subject or others that are affected. I attended a seminar, yesterday, where the subject was 'self harmers' and it was suggested that those staying in an abusive relationship, that they preferred not to be in, are causing themselves to suffer guilt, low esteem, feelings of being worthless, able to be manipulated, difficult to communicate and a raft of other identifying characteristics. Of course I refer to the situation here at CS. I know that I want to leave 'the job' [I don't need the damn job], I know I want to sell up and move out and I know I am 'too soft' to 'see The Elder et al' out on the street. The guilt demotivates me leading to downward spiralism - that's one of the reasons why I like to 'blog'. I have 'met' some delightful people, I am able to express my feelings and, usually, people leaving comments are, whether or not they know it, very supportive - some very much so. I was recently advised 'you are good at writing down what you would like to say' - you have to tread carefully - long letters etc [a bit like today's post!], may be seen as 'evidence of stress etc symptoms'. Of course I am not really a self harmer [in any fashion], but the comments etc heard yesterday certainly made me feel uncomfortable. Best I move on from this sensitive subject.
The Dog? What a smart boy!! Friday, however, he is at the vet.'s [The Elder changed the appointment] - he's in for surgery [dental extraction/s] and, probably, something else. We both worry about him - once he has his hair cut, you are able to see how skinny he is and, consequently, in good shape for his age - the fact is, however, he is elderly. Best move on #2.
That's it for this evening - it's been another cold and wet day. I have been working in my room all day, The [skinny] Dog, bless him, has been curled up and snoring. Lucky old thing! In tomorrow and Friday off.
More later.
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