In the mail ...

Hello! Well. last night I was in bed (on my own) @ 2100 - oh yes, and apart from, briefly, waking @ 0105 and 0310, I managed to doze off and woke, fully, @ 0530 - so lots of sleep! I have received an e-mail from 'work' and deleted it unread - perhaps I should have read it but the fact is that I haven't - a week on Monday is when I leave altogether - I wonder what will happen by then? It's a trade off - I am 'paid' up until the end of the month, on sick (so they cannot claim it back) and, theoretically, they should not place me under any undue pressure - at least before the sickness certificate expires (4th Aug) at which time I will have left. Watch this space!

A very hot day today - 76' !!  How do you cope when it's in the 90's?  Clearly the meds are taking effect and, now that I am on the prescribed dose, I feel so drowsy for most of the day.  I will be off blog for the last two weeks of August and will not even be able to be contacted via e-mail - brace yourselves!

Many thanks to VofT for your kind words and hello to 'monkeysuit' - thanks very much for your feedback and wise words. The Elder has been busy, this afternoon, in the garden - I do feel guilty but it's one of those things.  I hope I am fit to attend the event in August - it's important that I attend.

Maybe more tonight - separate e-mails going out later. BFN

How was it ..?

Hello and welcome back!  The dentist visit went as expected - a check up, some concerns, attend next month for another check up.

Many thanks to VofT for your several comments and apologies for not posting them straight away.

I should be going out tonight but I have decided not to.  I have to confess to feeling a bit rough, no dear, not feeling a bit of rough (oh, I dunno tho'), but simply feeling rough. A glorious summer's day - blue sky and a temperature of 76' in my room. Much of the day has been spent recovering ;-) and working on my vid, which I was, finally, able to upload to YouTube.  It has, as is life, been a learning experience - some aspects went better than others - anyhoo, it's something to learn for the next vid.

Nothing heard from #2 & #3. The Dog is sprightly and this morning bounded up the stairs when The Elder brought tea and a biscuit.  The Dog watched the biscuit, never taking his eyes off it, and when I stroked his head he bared his teeth and growled at me! His visit and possible share of the biscuit ended when he was, unceremoniously, exited off the bed / out of my room.  He even had the nerve to leave the room all the while growling.  Going downstairs, several minutes later, when I entered the kitchen, he approached me all big friends again - you soon forgive him. The rest of the afternoon, The Elder having gone to the shops, I attempted to watch TV but found it hard to concentrate - most disconcerting.

Hey ho - it's fast approaching 1800 - time for the happy pill, the heart stuff is taken at 2200 and another at about 0800. I am not sure if I get twitchy minutes before 1800 but I do feel the pill 'kicking in' once I have swallowed it - hey! legalised dope - cool man!!

Finally, I have, recently, caused a lot of worry to readers (and myself), by having filters set whereby various words, in received e-mail, has resulted in the mail being binned (without any intervention on my part).  I most sincerely apologise and have now removed all filters. I have, also, set a rule whereby nominated 'senders' have their e-mail forwarded to another account that I use and will view through a 'proper' e-mail prog.. This should avoid problems in future.

Dawn delight ...

Good morning!  Up @ 0430 - blame The Dog.  I could hear him, downstairs, playing with one of his toys - I desperately tried to sleep but it wasn't to be. Downstairs, where The Dog is full of life - and pleased I am - we have not forgotten the worries of a few weeks ago. Out he goes, he doesn't cock his leg up - he squats - it's all to do with the Alpha - he sees me as Alpha (no, I don't cock my leg up either - I think The Elder does though!). Back in, tail (stump) wagging furiously, breakfast and then he races upstairs and crashes out - on my bed.  Myself? The necessary and then a'scratchin', on with the kettle and on to the PC to see what's what.  It appears that my efforts to upload my vid are doomed to failure (at this time) - the 'other' software does not export in any of the appropriate formats, so it's back to the drawing board.

Now 0600 - I just love the summer dawn - all is quiet apart from rhythmic snoring of both The Elder & The Dog. It's light outside and the sky is blue.  I have only, last night, learned that The Elder is on leave from work all week - bother - I could have gone off somewhere / visited The Senior though, in reality, it's not possible at the moment. Out tonight to The Organisation - as you know I hate attending and my visit will end at the earliest opportunity - no stopping behind for the buffet etc. There goes the next door neighbour - incredibly considerate.  She starts her car, 'people carrier', and departs with the minimum revs unlike the object over the road, departs (not every day), at the same time - early morning, with the car engine running, radio turned on, doors open while she goes back to the house before returning to the car and driving off with high revs - grrrrr ....

I feel so much better for (almost) leaving 'the job'.  I cannot think what possessed me to take on the 'work'. I haven't formally left yet but will 'give immediate Notice, in just under two weeks.

OK must go - the dentist will be sharpening his knives ... although, I suspect that it will simply be an examination, the meds. are causing a problem and 'wait and see' - that way he is able to claim for an examination (only) from the dental insurance company. I suspect that I will be called back 'for a review' next month (after the dentist returns from his West Indies holiday).

Look at the time ...

Well, what a strange day and - look at me! Still up and 'at it' as the clock approaches midnight.  The room temperature is 75' - oh dear - I fear a restless sleep tonight with just a sheet separating me from the air - visualise, if you must.

I have to confess that, this afternoon, the heat, still air and early start got to me and I fell asleep for over an hour. The good news is that The Dog has been clipped and what a fine, smart, good looking fellow he is - oh yes indeedy!

Otherwise, I have little to tell you - not strictly true - I spent all night putting my vid together and it was awful - I ended up, instead, using still pictures and creating an swf presentation.  Uploaded to YouTube and still, after 30 minutes, waiting for it to be accepted / available for viewing.  A couple more minutes and then I am off to bed. The good news is that my weight, after two weeks of the 'happy pills' has not changed - hurrah!

Time for bed - I have just checked - the vid. has still not been 'published' - I might delete it and try again tomorrow - sleep tight.  Hope you feel better.

$2000.00 US ...

Hello and good morning / afternoon - lovely day, 71', slight breeze, blue sky with few clouds.

The title?  The bill for The Dog's vet. treatment has arrived - sheesh ... Luckily the pet insurance has met 95% of it - good news and The Elder (per earlier agreement) is picking up the other 5%. Cost to me? The monthly premium ($55) and the cost of haircuts such as today ($40).  So far, then, a good day. Slept slightly better in that, although I was awake from 0400 or so, I managed to stay in bed until 0600 or thereabouts. The Elder, day off, has taken various reference books back to the 'job' for me and that's another worry lifted. Hey! Things are looking good today - I hope it continues.

Many thanks to VofT for everything. Just had my lunch (all I have had all day) and the delight was reheated stew (from last week) - waste not / want not.

The rest of the day? A bit more in the garden though I remain in some discomfort following previous over exertion in the garden, otherwise working on producing my vid. (Hi Marge!)  I use a program called 'Camtasia' - a free version was given away last year I think it was - the Windows Movie Maker prog is very similar, remarkably similar in fact and I suspect Camtasia's manufacturer, Techsmith, have produced Movie Maker at the request of Microsoft.

OK must rush - I am expecting some important post.

Dem bones ...

Hello and welcome - a very hot day today - oh yes. Up and out of bed @ 0350, usual routine - downstairs, feed (wake up) The Dog, out he goes, cup of tea for me and back to bed, falling sleep @ about 0430 - then waking up again @ 0730 or so at which time I get up and get dressed. Then the day stretches out in front of me.  Hi to VofT - and thanks for your comment and the mail. Now paying the penalty for the recent vigorous gardening activity - my shoulders and back ache - a more relaxing day tomorrow.  I have been out filming and will upload the vid to YouTube, tomorrow.

The Elder has received confirmation that, following her recent CT scan, there are no problems. Anyhoo, that'll do for the moment - The Elder is out first thing, The Dog is going for a haircut and I will be preparing myself for a trip to the dentist on Wednesday - not looking forward to it.

More later.

Action, roll 'em ...

Good morning! (as it is here) .. Sunday (bleugh) ... Up and about @ 0500 - becoming a bit too regular this - ah well, you have to wake up sometime so let's apply the 'early to bed, early to rise, makes a man healthy ...' and al that sort of stuff rule.  Thanks to VofT for the comment - 'Quorn' was used by #3 when she lived here,(briefly by #2), the stuff being a vegetable something or other that vegetarians are fond of.  It's not for me.  So far no effects from the new meds. and the earlier, ongoing med. is becoming well tolerated - I have to confess to being much more relaxed - cool man!

Today, after The Elder has gone to meet #2 (for lunch), then I will be going out to make a vid of the area - well (much later), that was the idea. I could use my camcorder or my 'mobile 'phone.  I need to charge up the former.  I am able to transfer the vid. on to my PC - ha! Famous last words!  It's taken me all day to:

1. Remind myself how my camcorder should be used / operates
2. Transfer video recordings (on tape) from the camcorder to my PC
3. Fathom out how to upload said video recordings to YouTube
4. Become demented trying to work out how to send 'private' video to a particular (blog) reader.
5. All sorted and the stress levels / BP are starting to reduce.

Sanity having been, finally, restored - I had to think what to have for lunch - see my efforts below (please): six 'muffin' size Yorkshire Puddings, which were accompanied by the remnants, mostly gravy, of a stew that I made last week.  It was all very tasty and, unusually(?) I had The Dog's full attention whilst I devoured my lunch.

The Elder has returned, stomachus bloatus, and has promptly collapsed in a heap / fallen asleep.  The temperature has increased this afternoon and I must admit, in a manner of speaking, I could have easily joined her but, of course, such feelings are an effect of the latest meds. and I was able to return to my efforts to upload home made vids - eventually with a fair amount of success.

As I write this rubbish, it's approaching 2200 UK time (2137 to be precise), I still have jobs to do that should have been completed yesterday, today - who knows? and who cares?  Tomorrow is another day.

Hope you have enjoyed your weekend, whatever it is that you have been up to - the good news is that it's back to work tomorrow (for you! - yes I know some of you work weekends and attend in your own time - commendable - been there, done it). Only other task tonight is to wait for my online bank to update any transactions that are due to occur.  This month, unless I dip into my savings, has been a bit of a struggle - perhaps I should not have bought the new microwave cooker but hey! You save some and you spend some - oh yes indeedy.

Presently listening to Classic FM - Peter Ilich Tchaikovsky: Nutcracker - Chinese Dance (except that it's just gone off the air!).

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Another Saturday night ...

Hello and welcome!  What a super day!  (Not so good) up at 0500 but I have stayed out of bed the whole day - now very comfortable with the meds, except for feeling a bit sick at about 0800 or so. Finally received the pre-payment certificate for the other meds. Looking at the instructions, for these meds, as you do, I find that one of the meds must not be used if you using 'that pill',  which, I understand, a number of men use - name not included as it might lead to spam issues - but you know to what I refer - begins with 'v' there's a 'g' in the middle and it ends with an 'a' - coloured blue, so I am told. Anyhoo, that pill controls the flow of blood and the meds. that I have to use could cause difficulty with the blood only going way leading to problems. Best we move on - the issue doesn't affect me, I don't use 'that pill' and I am starting to ramble, as usual, a bit.

So, how have you been? Is the weather OK and are you enjoying the w/end? Good, good - I am pleased. Me? Oh, much the same.  This evening I made the dinner (again) - The Elder, having inspected the freezer to see what could be used up found a large packet of 'Quorn' with which I attempted to make hamburgers - not a success. Mixed with onions, mushrooms and eggs to bind the stuff together, covering in flour and then baking proved to be a disaster of sorts.  The stuff cooked OK but fell apart and ended up looking like dog food - having tasted (and eaten) the stuff I think it actually was dog food - sheesh - it was like chewing cotton wool. You live and learn.

Tomorrow The Elder is taking #2 out for lunch, much as they were supposed to do last w/end. I really should sort out my various DVDs - I need to make a movie that I want to upload to YouTube - oh yes (you are a star!).

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The best laid plans ...

Hello and welcome to this part of downtown UK.  Another determined effort to stay out of bed (and get on with life), though I feel a bit groggy - I am sure it will wear off.  As soon as I woke I got dressed - the practice of leaving getting dressed till later in the day / lounging about in my PJ bottoms has caused a problem - I am grateful for the support.

So much for getting stuck in to the garage - the weather has changed, cold this morning and now it's raining.  The 'method' involves dragging stuff out of the garage and then putting it all back again in a tidier than before condition - I am always reminded of Bart Simpson's toy cupboard - pretty much the same but on a much larger scale.

The other 'news' is that #3 has 'phoned, from afar. The finer points are not clear, injury?, but, amidst a lot of tears, she wants to return and I get the impression she wants to return as soon as possible.  She spoke with The Elder, this morning, leaving The Elder precious little time to get ready for work - clearly this is a subject that requires further discussion. In truth this is a good thing - the sooner she returns the sooner she sorts out (in theory) her new accommodation and this might galvanize The Elder into looking for somewhere else to live - she has always maintained that when #3 leaves she would also leave. This would suit me.

I have to go to a meeting tonight, at the place where I used to be 'Chair' - a sort of rehearsal for next week.  I don't want to go but I have a 'duty' to do so - it means a drive, in the car, which I find disconcerting not to say expensive.  The price of a gallon of diesel, for the car, is now $12.50 and with the price of gas (for cooking etc) continuing to rise, it's predicted that the annual cost of this domestic fuel, for the average homeowner, will soon rise to $2000 pa. When will all this end?  'They' are saying that as long as you are able to pay for your mortgage then the current recession / house price problem will, as it always has done before, 'pick up' - it cannot come soon enough!  We have a general election, next April, but will a new government really make any difference?  The Labour Party (present government) came into power, about 11 years ago, in a fanfare of reform and where are we now?  In much the same situation that the country was in when they took power.  Will the Conservatives do any different? Probably not.

Soon be time for lunch!  The second highlight of the day.

Who's a good boy..?

Greetings (once again).  The title?  Determined effort to stay out of bed, throughout the day (disregarding the sound advice - forgive me!). A success - it's all to do with a. becoming used to the meds & b. getting the timing right (1800 seems to be about OK). So what did I get done? Actually not that much :(  Actually that's not strictly true ... this afternoon I thought I would review my finances (an online savings account).  For the life of me I could not remember the log in details and I had to 'phone the bank - bother! It involves a premium rate number - still - all my own fault.  I will not lose my details again.

The big plan, this afternoon, was to use my 'brush cutter', a sort of high speed grass strimmer, to take out the hedges that I cut back yesterday.  Although I found the appliance I could not find the blade, used instead of a line, to cut through roots and tougher than grass items hence the name brush cutter.  I looked in a container, at the rear of the garage and --- I found a 'family' of black plastic sacks - I am sure that they are breeding.  The contents? Need you ask??  Of course - a load of junk, putting it mildly, from #3's former bedroom - but not what I was looking for.  Increasingly depressed I looked in the garage and, of course, it's impossible to get in the garage. Work stopped.

Approaching The Elder, taking great care(!), I advised that tomorrow I would be getting stuck in to the garage - this met, inevitably, with howls of protest but 'a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do...'. Watch this space tomorrow.

Otherwise a really good day - I will be replying to post tomorrow - presently my head is swimming; I am struggling to stay awake in the hope that, going to bed as late as possible, I will 'sleep through' or at least beyond 0400. Here's hoping.

Good (early) start to the day ...

Good morning!  It's the nocturnal nut checking in - how are you? Well, it's early and I blame the early rise on the temperature - it's 73' in my room even with the window open. Thanks, as always, to VofT for the comments etc - greatly appreciated.

Quite a busy day yesterday (Wednesday) - eventually coming round at about midday and then, after something to eat, a furious effort at trying to get various jobs completed - did all my washing, quite a bit of work in the garden and I got The Dog in the bath (shower).  The day ended with The Elder walking in to a cooked dinner (chicken wrapped in bacon, fried rice and creamed mushrooms).

One side effect of the meds., as I have discovered, is an ache where we, men in particular, would rather not have an ache - aggravated by wandering around in PJ bottoms / not wearing pants. All sorted now but, my, you do live and learn.

Good start to the day, today - I wondered whether or not I would receive 'pay' for the job, from which I am now 'off sick' (until the end of the month when I should return to the job ...), anyhoo, the pay is in the bank - not a lot (the expected amount), but as The Senior always reminds me - 'any income is better than a bill' - oh yes indeedy. Today? Back to bed in a moment and hopefully to sleep and dream of the nicer things in life. The rest of the day? Who knows...

PM ...

Good evening - I have to confess to crashing out this afternoon, though only for an hour or so, and, hey!, it has, after all, been hot today - though not as hot as others are exposed to - hi Chris and thanks for the comment - well done on the weight!

Today? Not much at all - I feel dreadfully guilty for 'taking it easy' though I did make the dinner this evening.  The dinner was followed by The Elder raising the subject of what happens after March '09.  I was able to confirm that both #2 & #3 could return until then but after March '09 they would have to fend for themselves.  I don't, fingers crossed, expect any problems with #2 - she is quite well organised.  The Elder has indicated that she still wishes to remain here until The Dog departs - this weighs heavily on my mind.  There's no doubt that he is in his twilight years and would, equally, survive as long as he was fed & watered etc.  However, he is a member of the family and I feel a responsibility to him and I am sensitive to the feelings of others, towards him, even though it causes me so much grief. We shall see.

Meds. taken this evening @ 1900 - I am trying to gauge the best time whereby they 'kick in' without leaving me feeling so rough. Some good news!  I have lost 2lb in weight over the last week or so - probably as a result of the meds. - one side effect is weight gain - I have had to pay particular attention to my intake - as you do.

Technorati tags: Hot weather, tablets, flown the nest, divorce

Now listening to:

Mario Lanza - The Collection - I'll Walk With God

48 hours ...

Hello (good afternoon, as it is here) - a warm day - 70', slight breeze, clear blue sky. Thanks to VofT for your support etc.  

Yesterday - Monday - oh dear.

Despite, initially, the improved sleep, reflecting the new meds., I have 'slipped' in to a pattern of early waking.  Having 'upped' the dose to the prescribed amount (20mg instead of 10mg) I find I sleep very badly, though better last night.  Monday morning saw me attending the Doc.'s, @ 0830, dearie me, I had a blinding headache.  The Doc. was very good - nothing heard from the hospital and did I need another 'sick note' for my 'employer'? Honestly, I always to used to find asking 'for a note' embarrassing and now here I am being asked if I need one - I didn't need one as I have another three weeks on an earlier note.  The Doc. asked a few general questions and checked my BP - it's still way too high. Sigh. Visit to the dentist PM.  The meds., as expected, dry out your mouth and, consequently, I fear expensive dental work (possibly extractions) might be required.  What an old knacker this man is.

Back @ CS I had to attend to mail and then I crashed out, fitfully sleeping for most of the day. Honestly I looked grim! You wouldn't want to wake up next to me at this time!  A quick shower and then out to a sub branch of The Organisation at which I had to present the accounts (until recently I was the Treasurer).  Another effect of the meds. became clear - I felt lightheaded, hot and bothered with a cold sweat and I really had to concentrate on my driving.  Returning back here it was straight to bed. Up again this morning at 0500 or so (though I had been awake since 0400) - I could have stayed there but nature calls.

One thing that I have noticed is that the mornings are, inevitably, darker for longer - time flies.

So to bed (a bit later I suppose) ...

Hi and welcome.  Sunday, sigh, a long day with, on my part, much thinking and reflecting. Watch this space.

The previous post may have caused confusion - briefly I was up and about @ 0300 and posted a one liner about I wish I could sleep.  Later I deleted it. The thing I couldn't get my head round is that the (previous) post is shown as being posted on Saturday @ 2049 and this is not the case.  I can only assume that Google's Blogspot software does something in the early hours??? It doesn't really matter and if it auto corrects, making the previous even more confusing, well, best you skip forward and retain your sanity.

The Elder has been out, to meet with #2, though they both chose not to go for a meal.  So, a quiet and relaxing day, trying not to fall asleep and weighing up a proposal that has 'come my way'.  I am all in favour of the proposal and terribly flattered to be invited.

The Elder has returned and taken The Dog out for a walk.  Poor (The) Dog - he must be absolutely knackered - he was up (and fed) @ 0300, didn't get his mid day meal until 1100 (should be 1230) and his evening meal was @ 1645 (usually 1730). He's now sleeping off his confused, mixed up times, day. He appears to be in good health and that's all we ask for each other. Never got my washing done (less bedding) - it's supposed to be a good day tomorrow and I want to get my washing on the line. The Elder has indicated that she will sort out #2' bedroom - presumably ditching some, storing some and leaving some. As with the bedroom previously occupied by #3 I want to leave the room empty.  The Elder has informed #2 that she might return if there are any problems.  As I have already agreed that #3 may return, if she wishes, and remain until end March '09 then it's only fair that #2 gets the same 'deal'.

Technorati tags: Long day, 'flown the nest', divorce, holiday, vacation

Sunday #2 ...

OK - it was back to bed and up again @ 0700.  At least I feel OK.  Looking again at the info accompanying the pills I seem to be getting off, in a manner of speaking, lightly - no lurid dreams, no agitation, stomach aches or diarrhoea, over eating, weight gain (yet) but restless sleep and increased micturition. It could be worse the BP issues could involve being prescribed furosemide - not helped by drinking tea and other caffeine type drinks. Anyhoo, let's move on - it's all a bit earthy for this time of morning. The timing of the previous post is confusing (me) - I am not sure what time it says it was posted but it was early morning. Apologies for causing anyone concern, over there, and thanks for the feedback.

It's a beautiful morning here in downtown UK - the air is still, the sky is blue with 5/10 cloud cover. All is quiet except for the magpies calling to each other. Today I will be on my own (apart from my old friend The Dog). The Elder is taking #2 to lunch and good luck to them both. I do feel, as was suggested by VofT, that the pressures caused by 'work', The Dog, The Elder, #2 & #3 have taken their toll but now there might be light at the end of the tunnel. We shall see.

Advance notice - I have a part time job, which I attend very infrequently, and I need to 'work' for two weeks in August at which time I shall be off blog and with no access to a PC / the Internet. There, that's spoiled your day - not!

I might have to get rid of my car - it's an old, but well loved car. Motorists have to pay road tax, to the government, approximately $400 per year. Based on car emissions the government is to introduce revised charges whereby car owners will pay more if their vehicle exceeds various emission levels - these levels being broken down in to 'bands'. But wait .. good news!! The new scheme only applies to vehicles registered from 2001 onwards - hurrah!! Some good news for a change - I am so excited I will have to go the bathroom (again).

More later - actually I feel very well and alert at the moment.

Hope you enjoy Sunday.

Technorati tags: car tax, brighter outlook

Up with the birds ...

Good morning - the weekend - yeah!  Note the  ^($% time. Remind me never to go to bed having just drunk a glass of lemonade. Thanks to VofT for your comments. Gmail is very good though I do find, occasionally, that it will treat mail as spam - so, apologies, to readers, if you wonder why I have not replied to (any) mail or posted your comment. I have to check my spam / bin though I have set filters to avoid any confusion.

What to do today? I know! Let's go and check my online bank account (there now follows a two minute commercial). OK, I'm back - nothing new, still just above the interest free overdraft limit - all change over the next few days - the monthly local taxes go out ($350) and my credit card, always paid off in full, $$ also gets paid - I keep usage to a minimum and this month it's just to pay for the brilliant, new microwave.  If I had any sense, ha!, I would purchase everything by credit card, leave my current account untouched getting a little bit of interest but, hey ho ... Back to today? Plan the meals, clothes to wash, change the bedding and ... I dunno - make a few suggestions.

One thing I must do, in future, is take my meds earlier in the evening.  Taking them late, just before I go to bed, means I wake up OK (always a blessing) but I become disorientated later in the morning - lovely!

Technorati tags: Credit card, Gmail

Two down, one to go ...

Good evening and welcome, sympathetic thoughts are forwarded to our US colleagues in the wake of the Freddie Mac and Fannie Mae worries - hope it doesn't affect you directly.

The title?  Of course - #2 has left home - more in a moment.  I have spent much of the morning 'stoned' (not quite but decidedly unsteady) and, this afternoon, made a determined effort to complete tidying my room, clean the kitchen and prepare an evening meal - all completed successfully but I was left shattered.  Upstairs in my, nice and tidy, room (avec Le Chien), where I quickly fell asleep. #2 returned at about 1800 and promptly started the finishing of her packing (no 'Hello Dad' or anything like that, of course).  The Elder returned, from work, shortly after. SEH keeps a low profile (upstairs).  Very quickly the volume / heated discussion rises from downstairs.  Suddenly #2 sticks her head around my door and says 'Bye' and then she is gone.  25 years of caring and I get a two second farewell. How sad, how, really, really sad. A quiet tear, of course.

Otherwise not much else to tell you.  I contacted The Senior - she suffers, similar problems that I am now experiencing - 'course you don't 'let on'.  I gently asked her about her medication and boy! am I in the minor league!  I am on 5 items daily - The Senior is on 15 items daily. Tomorrow I will be starting on the proper dose i.e. 20mg of ... rather than the half tablet that I chose to take whilst I adapted (or not) to it.  Should be interesting first thing Monday morning (0845) when I attend the Docs.

It's been a long day - nothing planned for the weekend. Hope you enjoy yours.

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The weekend! (or what day is it today?) ...

Hi and good afternoon - outside the rain is lashing down and, believe it or not, I am making progress in tidying my room. If the weather improves then I hope to take out The Dog (take him out for a walk, that is, and not 'take him out' - you know what I mean).  Thanks to VofT for the continuing support etc. I am still groggy in the mornings - still The Dog doesn't mind as he sleeps most of the day but now he parks up on my lap or wherever I have crashed out. One side effect, from yesterday's exercise, seriously itchy nips (from where the hair was removed)!

Otherwise?  Well, #2 is taking another load tonight (to her new place) and The Elder has indicated that #2 might not return (tonight) i.e. moving out tonight. Tears?  I think not. On the back of Mel's good news about her job I offer news of my own.  I retired from my previous profession, a few years ago, though I still remain 'registered'.  Changing employer invariably means moving house / out of the district.  Imagine my surprise to see not one but three vacancies for 'my job' being advertised locally.  Just 'to test the water', I applied and despite meeting the person specification (and more) I have not been shortlisted.  It's a bitter pill to swallow, (what, yet another pill?!), and I guess that particular door has closed (but another one has opened - oh yes - I don't have to explain, do I?). 

I really should start adding the tags again - my number of visitors has reduced of late - hey ho, they come and go.

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Normal service is resumed ...

Hi y'all and welcome back.  Some good news (btw apologies for being 'off the air' yesterday - blame the pills).

Good news?  It was off, today, to the hospital where I was seen, on time, by a delightful doctor - who was, clearly, stressed out having to deal, on his own, with about 12 sickly looking patients, all being seen for free as part of the National Health Service (recently 60 years old).  The doctor, bless him, was from distant shores (in the east) and it was very difficult to follow what he was saying - anything other than the simplest answer to his questions saw him becoming 'excited' - anyhoo, to cut a long story short, there are no problems with the old ticker, I have been discharged back to my local Doc. but the medication i.e. the number of items has been increased - now a total of five different prescriptions per month - oh yes. I see my Doc. on Monday and we will take it from there. Oh, I forgot, my cholesterol needs to come down. The 'other' tablets, associated with the stress etc, left me shattered yesterday morning. Not as bad today though I was up and awake (and downstairs - 'hurrah!', woofs The Dog), at 0400 and have been up since.

If you want to know, my hairy-ish chest now has a clear, hair free band across it (for the various electrodes that were applied), the treadmill thingy was rather uneventful and my Mother, The Senior, to whom I have told nothing, would, I am sure, seriously sort out everyone here @ CS, less The Dog and myself.  I have not informed her of the health issues and she would be angry beyond words if she knew what had been / was / is going on. Anyhoo, let's move on.

I posted my 'sickness certificate' in to 'work' and although I have not provided any additional information (to what the Doc. wrote on the certificate), I now accept that the 'job' will end at the end of the month (maybe sooner). A bit sad because I met some lovely people and will miss them, will miss the limited income but, instead, will enjoy tidying my garden and the house.  In the end I didn't buy a chainsaw or similar - I have a hedge cutter and that should do the trick.  Hopefully the ground will have softened with all the rain that we have had recently.

I, also, need to take stock of my finances. The biggest expense is going to be the new windows.  I am being encouraged not to renew the windows but sell the house, or try to, with the windows as they are - this will mean a slightly lower price than I could ask for and this might help sell the house that bit easier i.e. to someone who doesn't have the necessary funds. Alternatively, if I spend the money, renewing the windows, it might make the house more attractive to those that don't have money worries - hey ho it's a muddle.

#2 departs on Saturday - I do appreciate that she has a lot on her mind and I try to make an allowance.  I went in to her room, to drop mail on her bed, and I saw a wish list, which includes:

• Move out of here
• Visit Mum 2 -3 times a week
• Send Mum an allowance

Not sure of the need for the 'allowance' and what is not included? Of course!  Not a mention about her Dad. It's all very sad,  Thanks to VofT for your cheery support, mail and comments - no, I do not wear a black dress but the little white hat does look rather fetching.

More later.

Intermission ...

Back tomorrow morning - apologies for the break in transmission (health reasons).

A woman's work ...

Hello and here we are again.  Many thanks to VofT for everything especially the joke about the medical appointment!, (reply will be on Friday) and hello to 'Geek' - thanks, also, for your comment - sound advice and so true; it's a fact 'you cannot put a wise head on young shoulders'.

Rotten day today - raining, cold and windy - it's almost like late October. Another good sleep but I sense the medication is now 'kicking in' and, this morning I don't feel too good, a bit groggy and lethargic.  Sorry, I don't mean to bleat, but as I have said before, the blog is my personal diary. I suppose it will come and go. Hospital tomorrow - I wonder if I will be fit to drive?

The house is quiet - #2 & The Elder are at their respective work and it's just The Dog, asleep on my bed & myself (soon to join The Dog - if he will shift over).  This afternoon I will tidy my room, honestly! and start thinking about the evening meal - a right little housewife - you should see me in my apron.

See you soon.

X

A right little Madam ...

Hi and welcome back.  The good news is that I managed to cut the grass - big deal?  Definitely- the grass was so long that it was starting to 'flower', anyhoo all cut back to a more reasonable length (still not tidied out my room). Whist cutting the grass I reflected on what to cut back / cut down and. to assist me, I have decided to 'lash out' on a petrol driven chain saw - bloody lethal things that they are.

The title refers to #2. My but she is so very 'short' - you are barely able to offer a view or whatever before she corrects you, getting 'nasty' if you challenge her. Anyhoo, she has returned from her new place and has purchased a thing that allows her PC to connect to the broadband 'facility' in the shared house. She returned with the (USB) component and asked me how it all went together (ah!, a use for Dad, at last). I suggested we set up the PC and both of us go through the instructions provided with the plug in thingy.  Silly boy. Next thing she has returned with everything installed except it doesn't appear to work.  I offer to have a look and she becomes increasingly more bad tempered ending up 'taking me on' (and winning) in an argument 'I am an adult (really?) and you will not treat me like a child' and more.  Now's the time to get my BP checked - what do I do?  Of course - I walk away. She will be gone in three days.

Revised plan - #2 has flown the nest and I will not let her move back in. #3?  No change - return anytime and must quit by end March '09.  The Elder (remember she wanted to stay until The Dog passed away - how long?), I have decided she may stay until end August 2009 - that gives her five months to sort herself out after #3 has, hopefully, departed. Watch this space.

Menu this evening? Chicken breast wrapped in smoked bacon, baked, baked potato, coleslaw and tinned spaghetti - delicious. OK just swallowed my (half) pill and already feeling woozy - lovely! I now amuse myself with Sudoko - loving it. The Elder is waiting for feedback from her Doc. (following her recent CT scan) - the 'phone has rung several times today and I have reached the thing just too late.  If we dial 1471 we are able to have the caller's number read back - normally.  The caller, however, withheld their number.  I mentioned this to The Elder and she went spare - 'that will be the Doc. with my results' - see I just cannot get it right - now you can see why I want the peace and quiet, at least for a while, that living on your own brings.

Time for bed.  Hi to VofT - hope you sort out the various issues- more later. Must go!  I am struggling to maintain focus on the letters - groovy!

Day #2 ...

Good morning! (Last time I use the 'Day ##' title). Another good night though no lurid dreams (sadly). Grateful thanks, as ever, to VofT for the comments etc and to others that flatter me by their regular visit.

Much more relaxed today, though I was up and awake very early. I was sat, downstairs @ 0430, watching a 1950's movie, the film starred Dana Andrews - actually it was very good. Long chat with The Senior, last night, when she noted with acute interest details of the 'big plan' [no Dear, not the big bang...]. Mothers ... I have told her nothing about my health but have, as you do, kept her informed about developments at 'work'. I have told her about the Doc. providing me the necessary 'sick note' 'because of a problem with my back' (though the Doc has, of course, been told the truth) and she pressed me on 'is there something that you are not telling me?'. Honestly, she has the 'knack' and when questioned by her I struggle, as I did this time, to hold it together.  When I was a kid, having committed some childish misdemeanour, when confronted by The Senior I would deny everything but try and seek a deal by saying 'if I tell the truth will you not smack me?'.  This used to cause her fits of giggles. The Senior, quite rightly, urges me 'to accept your lot' - 'you are financially secure, not well off but you don't need to work, lots of things that you have not done in your life, in a position to enjoy life and yet you persevere "taking on another challenge, knackering yourself in the process and from which, ultimately, you will derive no benefit", why can't you just enjoy life?'.

Of course she is quite correct.

Pending the tests, at the hospital (Thursday), I have, not unusually, refrained from having two prescriptions dispensed. One is for a spray, used if you start getting chest pains and the other is for Aspirin. I have previously referred to having to pay for prescriptions such as the meds that I am now having to take. Any item e.g. 28 tablets, is chargeable (at the same price) i.e. £7.10 ($US? about $13). Those over 65 do not have to pay, pregnant women and new mothers (for the first twelve months after the birth), those on state benefit do not have to pay ... grrrrr.... Contraceptives are free. Those paying and needing regular medication are able to buy an annual 'season ticket' - her's a link if you want to know more.

This morning The Elder & #2 are a'packin & a'sortin and getting ready to go out. Me? I dunno - it's going to be a long day. The grass still needs cutting but it's soaking wet (lots of rain over the last few days). I think I will get out my exercise bike though, as you know, the saddle shape and associated friction causes certain discomfort. Hey ho - life is a funny old business.

Variation on a theme ...

Coming round - I have to confess that following a review of forums, where those posting are 'enjoying' the same medication, I was apprehensive about taking the 'full shot' so, as others had done, I split the dose in half. Same tonight and probably for the rest of the week. We shall see.  I have been tired all day. Thanks to VofT for the supporting comments etc.

The meeting with The Elder - applying the old 'rule' "give it a coat of thinking overnight" I met with her today, much as last Saturday. Briefly this is the big plan - #3 may return at anytime but must leave / quit by 31st March 2009.  The Elder, 'another tenant' must not represent or speak for #3 in any way.  I am a free to impose any reasonable tenancy conditions applicable to #3's continuing occupancy, will meet with her weekly and she is subject to 28 day's Notice.  Any significant 'violation' will result in 24 hour's Notice. All to be in writing. The Elder accepted all these conditions.  With respect to The Elder, she is also, to quit by the same date.  She, however, asked if she could continue in residence until The Dog departs to the great kennel up above.  Mmmmm - good point. I will have to think about this.  In any case #3 must be out by the stated date. You might wonder why I am, as so often in the past, relenting?  It appears that #3 requires surgery and this is to be pursued on her return. Watch this space.

Nothing heard from anyone else ('the job') and that's not a bad thing. #2 is moving out this weekend, taking tomorrow off to pack her stuff and do what ever is involved [The Elder is always day off on Tuesday]. Me?  I will pack away / sort / prepare for disposal the stuff that goes with the (ex) job, tidy my room (still not done!) and, weather permitting, cut the grass.

It's a grand life being a stressed out, drugged up, early retired 'pensioner'.

Day #1 ...

Day #1 ... Good morning.  I am struggling to focus on the keyboard - it's all a bit hard to maintain focus.

In bed, last night, I did something, on my own, that I haven't done for a long time. No one else was involved, just me, I was quiet and I made it last for a long time. Oh but it was good and I must do it again - if I am able to.

So, you might be asking yourself, what has he been up to that sounds, possibly, something out of character?  Of course baby!  Let me share - what did I do that merits my opening comments?  I slept, baby, I slept - undisturbed 2200 - 0545.  Seriously, now that I am up and awake, I do feel very unsteady on my feet. Last night, in bed, it was a sensation never experienced before - I knew I was about to fall asleep, honestly I could 'feel' myself going and then I would resist, 'snap out of it' only for the sensation to return - almost like being on a conveyor - you know where you are going, you stop the conveyor, there's a pause and it starts up again -= moving slowly, gently, encouraging you to stop resisting and so you do - and then as if you were falling off a cliff, you give in and you float down, down, down and the next thing - it's morning.

Groovy baby.

More later - I am off back to bed.

0850 - Up again (somehow) - I have to lurch to the Docs. for 1000.

1045 - Here's an update.  The recent blood rests have come back as OK except the cholesterol could be less.  I have my hospital visit next Thursday and, based on everything so far, we (Doc. & myself) are optimistic that 'things should be OK'. But, in the meantime, I have been prescribed more medication(!).  The really good news is that I have been given a 'sick note' for a month, which means that 'work' will be unable to put me under pressure to attend any further 'discussion'. That said I wouldn't put it past the B's writing to me and pursuing their own agenda anyway.  Finally, this is all a weight off my mind - when I leave the 'job', at the end of July, I will be able to say whatever I want about what happened, two weeks ago, and how the issue was addressed.  Alternatively, I could just walk away, saying nothing, blaming no one and holding my head up high. 

OK - time for a late breakfast - time to get my oats (or porridge as it's called locally).  Big discussion with The Elder later today.  More later

X

Another Sunday ...

Hullo - another Sunday.  Grateful thanks to VofT for bringing a smile to this, 'battered' face. Dear All, I realise that I do waffle on so forgive me when I clam up - though clamming up might have its advantages. I have spent the morning writing up the Notice for The Elder's departure, next March. As usual, in this sort of situation, I am apprehensive about how the Notice will be received - see, that's one of my (many) problems - I put myself in the other person's shoes and my nerve goes wobbly - hey ho, we are all different - I am sure that I have some positive ways to compensate.  The Elder has been out, to the shops (taking #2 with her, #2 has taken a lot of her stuff to wherever it is that she is going] and part of her shopping includes collecting the prescription (pour moi). Reactive symptoms, to the new pills, include: change in sex drive (not sure how to view that) - apologies, in advance, if the 'tone' of future posts degenerates (further) or becomes 'rude' - humour me. Other symptoms? I am being selective: increased flatulence (hee hee hee), weight decrease! (or increase), confused (so no change there), vivid dreams (I'll let you know if you put in an appearance and how you behave) and a few other things.

I never did tidy my room but will do so later today.  I might even get dressed - been in my PJ's since Friday evening - oh dear - let's just look at this - I haven't been out (of my shell) and they are so comfortable, in warmer climates I might go without anything - that would shock the neighbours and entertain the cat/s or shock the cat/s and entertain the neighbours). Stop being silly you bad SEH.

Docs. tomorrow and then a review of how to develop my garden.  I think I will grow some veg. Problem is that we don't get the weather (that you do) and I need to purchase a few garden tools - two items include a hedge cutter (petrol driven) and, also, a rotavator - not cheap but it makes 'digging over' so much easier and the effect is immediate. I cannot justify a chain saw - I haven't a garden use for it. OK, let's stop wasting time - get stuck in to tidying my room and then, later, I think I'll dig out my guitar and practice my finger picking - and why not.

The beginning of the End ...

Well, The Elder finally stirred from her slumbers (about 1130) and descended downstairs. No problemo.  It became obvious that #2 had informed her, The Elder, that #2 & myself have 'spoken' and The Elder asked 'could we talk?' - of course I agreed. The discussion was OK, to start with, but became more strained when the subject of money was raised.  Briefly I asked what options / choices we had following #2's departure. Initially, The Elder played 'hard to get' and then stated - 'there is no problem, the reduced income will be made up by herself' - OK, sounds good (and very much appreciated, a point that I quickly made clear). Then the discussion turned to #3 and was initiated by The Elder. Suddenly, the stakes have been raised. 'What about ... (#3)?' Before I could speak she tells me that #3 has suffered an injury overseas, in January, and, on her return, will be seeking to have the injury attended to and this could involve surgery. Naturally you must feel concerned.  The Elder advises that she, The Elder, will have no option but to move out, when she (#3) returns, to 'nurse' her daughter. Clearly this is the emotional trap - what sort of person would let a doting Mother move out of a secure house to nurse a daughter that would be requiring surgery, didn't have any money and had nowhere to live. I explained that I couldn't cope with #3.  Her behaviour, recently, shows that she has not changed, is still the same person she was when she departed last year and that, quite simply, I couldn't, especially as my health was now of concern, be expected to put up with this. What do you think happened then?

The Elder, sensing hearing something that she didn't want to hear, raising her voice, argued that 'she is what she is', 'she is what we have made her', 'I accept that she doesn't do anything to help in the house', 'that we have to work around her', 'that she is difficult', 'I know she hasn't bothered with you whilst she has been away' and so on. 'What can I do?' By now I am getting seriously stressed and trying, successfully, to not become distressed (not angry, difficult or the like). Then with a sudden, quiet and calm voice I said 'this has got to end, this living together isn't working, I am making myself ill, as owner of the house I shouldn't have to justify my concerns and be subject to heated discussion of this nature, you knew about ... (#2) and never told me, you knew about ... (#3) injury and you never told me' and, finally, 'this has got to end'. Outcome? The Elder has been given until March '09 to find somewhere else to live.  As #3 is due to return in the autumn then this move might occur sooner rather than later. That's the plan anyway. It still leaves the problem of #3, her return, her medical problem and the possible surgery. The Elder accepts I want her out (I am honouring an earlier Agreement) but what to do with #3 until then?

Suggestions?

Good news (and bad news) ...

Hello, good morning and here we are again ... As ever thanks to VofT for your kind words.  The good news? There isn't any. The bad news ...

On the assumption that I will, suddenly wef next Monday, have a lot more time on my hands, I will be sorting out my PC - over time I have, as you do, installed muchus programmus {a lot of which is crappus programmus). This has had the effect of slowing down my PC and causing other problems.  What this all means is that, in the next week, the blog will not be updated and posting email will be restricted. I will still be able to view email (on my 'phone though pictures will not display which will slow down page refreshing).

Next, with the demise of my 'income' from the 'job' (though I might be able to get July's payment - or part of it - I am not sure how the system works).  You get so much per year. Divide that by 365 (days) and multiply by 12 (months).  If you leave 'mid year' the company calculates how many days you actually attended and then determines if you have been over / under paid. Subsequently you either get a final payment or a demand for repayment (though you can repay by interest free instalments).

Next, a bad night, I am afraid, slept badly (a symptom of depression) then, for the first time, cramp in my leg!  So there I am, lying in bed (quickly gloss over and erase from memory this 'vision'), wide awake and with unpleasant pains.

Next, having descended @ 0545 (to the delight of The Dog), I was shocked by #2's appearance (0605). She 'wanted to talk' - oh dear.  Very quickly she told me that she had found somewhere else to live and would be moving out.  I didn't display the sadness I felt but wished her well and informed that I would be pleased to help.  No doubt her Mother, The Elder, would be shocked to learn this except, #2 informed me, that The Elder, her Mother, had known for at least the last month. Do you think The Elder should have told me? Maybe. Maybe not.  There's no point in having an 'inquiry', The Elder will simply say she was only told about a 'possible move'.  Then #2 will support her Mother and, suddenly, as the situation deteriorates, it's you (yourself) that's being unreasonable. 

Next, to my great regret, I have to have the recent prescription dispensed. Let alone the side effects I have to pay for the bloody thing.  It defies belief.  The UK provides free medical care in the form of the National Health Service. Prescriptions, issued in Scotland or Wales, will not cost the person prescribed a cent.  This policy is presently being considered in Northern Ireland. England? Not a chance - you pay boy! Unless, that is, you are on benefits, which I am not.  I can cope, with daily expenses, with my savings and pension but have to pay for prescriptions, eye test (unless it's a freebie offered by the local optician - see previous), dental work, hearing aid, truss (not that I need all of these things but you get the idea). Figures show that for every 100 prescriptions prescribed only 12 in each 100 actually pay.

Apologies for presenting as miserable - the blog is a sort of personal diary and I have to 'say' what I feel, as when it occurs, readers' positive feedback does cheer me up. Today? Sort out my room. More later but don't forget I might be 'off blog' for a week or so.

It's going up ...

Hello and greetings.  Hope the 4th has been good for you.  Not so for myself.

This morning it was off to the Docs. for an ECG and to have about a gallon of blood taken.  All went well.  The nurse made me feel uncomfortable by, me being stripped to the waist (not a pretty sight), by her leaning across me to apply the electrodes. She was very pleasant and well, let's move on.  The good news is that the ECG trace was fine showing that my ticker ticks at the appropriate speeds and that the 'p' and 't' thingys were all OK {look up ECG if you really want to know]. The bad news is that my BP has not reduced and still is cause for concern being 140+ / 90+.  Then it was off to 'work' to meet my 'supervisor' and the witch from 'HR'.  It was a very traumatic meeting and there are still issues to be resolved.  I have decided to see my Doc. on Monday and obtain a sickness certificate to remain absent, 'off sick' until the end of the month and then I will pack it all in or, maybe, I will simply pack it all in on Monday.  I remain, otherwise, on 'special leave' and I believe this provides for 'work' to get their case together and, maybe, see me off next week.  The 'job' was always of limited duration and would, in any case, finish in about twelve months.  The limited income is badly affected by rising fuel prices and when the 'job' ends and I have, maybe, obtained the relevant qualification it will not be worth a light as I am, presently, self sufficient and I can do without the frickin hassle. Like others I just yearn for a quiet life.    Honestly, it's one crisis after the other.

Thanks to VofT for your comment etc. Hi to Mel - it's good to see you 'up and about' again and hi to Chris - excellent vid about the pink pearls.  It's good to put a face to the blog.

Otherwise - bed, for me, which will involve any number of positions.

Tick, tick, tick ...

Hi and for you 'over there' I hope you all enjoy your special day (tomorrow).

Thanks to VofT for your kind words - much appreciated. I went for an eye test today - not a good idea when you have woken up, thankfully, after a couple of drinks the night before.  About three years ago I paid a small fortune for new specs - 'Flexon' frame - seriously sexy frames i.e. two arms and a bridge.  All of the metalwork will bend and twist and whatever else you might want to do with the stuff, somebody told me it's used in aircraft skin manufacture - I know not.  The lenses cost practically as much (first thing I bought after the divorce).  Problem is that the bloody prescription is all t's up.  I always knew there should have been a prism in one of the lens and, as I suspected, there isn't.  Makes focusing difficult as the eye tries to compensate for the stigmatism. The good news is that the prescription has not changed in fact one eye, forgotten which, is improving!  I was told it's probably one of the few parts of your body that improves with age, doesn't shrink, sag, bend, go brittle or dry up - fancy that.

I have spent all day typing up papers that I have to hand in tomorrow when I meet various people from work.  It's no big deal.  First, however, it's a trip to the Docs. to have a blood sample taken and an ECG - oh yes, it's about time I got some return for my taxes [just wish it wasn't related to my health]. Received a letter, from the local (big) hospital - I have to attend next week for a 'review' - mmmm.  It's all treadmill and that sort of stuff.  I have to wear comfortable clothes - does that mean I take my slippers and PJ bottom / tee shirt? I think not. My Doc., after I saw him on Monday, just clicks on his PC (or more likely one of the office staff does it) and hey ho you are summoned for more tests. Watch this space.  It's approaching 2320 and I cannot have anything to eat after 0000 midnight.  It's stupid - I am able to stuff my face until then - I'll be off for a sandwich or something very shortly.

Nothing heard from #3, of course and The Elder's friend (she has them) called round last night. She's, shall we say, 55 going on 45 - that's a term I once overheard - I've never fully understood it.  The grass grows ever longer and, the idea is, when I return from the work meeting tomorrow, say 1300, then I will get the grass cut - oh yes. This weekend I have to write a report, a sort of personal reflection for my manager about recent events.  I have to explain how I contributed to the event and the cause of the event.  Sounds like a way of writing your own employment termination Notice. A lot depends on what happens tomorrow. Guess who made the dinner - again?  Pork steaks wrapped in smokey bacon, roasted and served with boiled rice and fresh, cooked, tomatoes. Delicious.  I would let The Dog have the 'bits' but, ungrateful bugger that he is, he 'went for me' today when I grabbed his collar to stop him barking at the old dear next door (house still unsold). You soon forgive them don't you - those that you love can do no wrong (as long as you love them) - well that's what someone once told me (I think it was The Junior followed by The Elder with #3 putting on a brave third).

Roll on tomorrow.

Anybody's ...

Greetings - it's been a while since I posted, well OK, it seems a while but, in reality, was only yesterday and in that time so much has happened. I attended the meeting at which three others were present - my 'supervisor', my 'manager' and some inexperienced idiot from HR. Briefly, I had, previously, been subject to bullying and harassment leading to certain action on my part.  The meeting was to identify what had happened though, this time, with input from my 'supervisor'.  At the end of the meeting it was clear that I had a valid grievance and the 'supervisor' had behaved unreasonably.  To be honest I think we both regretted the matter arising.  The manager was reasonably laid back and seemed to have other things he wanted to get on with.  The HR person however, oh dear, he / she couldn't be more PC if he / she tried.  She / he is new in to the job and didn't have the maturity to realise the matter had been a flash in the pan and best forgotten - not a chance.  This was an opportunity for this newly appointed idiot to dig deep and identify what the part, in this 'affair', yes you know I am going to say 'my first affair for a while' - ha ha ha, dig deep, identify areas for improvement and apportion blame 'for the record' (excuse the language) - a complete arsehole.  Despite being heavily criticised, for how I responded, I am still at work but certain changes have been applied and, all being well, I should re-commence 'elsewhere in the organisation' next week - watch this space.

This evening it was out to a local branch of the the organisation that I no longer refer to. It was a good night and, as with the fantastic support from VofT, a really good night that cheered me up no end.  I have returned slightly squiffy - it doesn't take much - two glasses of wine and I am yours! [or anyone else's]. Naughty SEH - I am off to bed 'cos my head is spinning.  This time tomorrow, well midnight actually, I have to eat nothing / drink nothing - all part of the tests on Friday morning.  I have not yet had the prescription dispensed - the 'pills' may cause unpleasant side effects - some of which affect the nether regions - not really a problem, I don't mean to be silly (it just happens) - not really a problem because the 'region' is .... best stop there.

More later

Later today ...

Is the meeting of a manager and 'supervisor' at my temporary 'work'. The likelihood of my leaving the 'job'   i.e. leaving on my own terms, after the summer break, rather than being 'finished' by 'them', still remains very high. The meeting is to be held later today, this afternoon, and I still have no idea where it is to be held. I guess I wait for an e-mail, up until 1030 or so then I will have to enquire from 'work' - it's all a bloody game. On a more positive note, it's a beautiful morning - all is quiet and I listen to the birds singing as they flit from tree to tree occasionally landing in my, overgrown, garden; this delightful actively also features seagulls screeching, landing heavily on my roof and crapping all over the cars that are parked up. This is nothing, of course, to the noise that will, probably, start up in the next 30 minutes or so - this noise being from the highway repair people. Ah well, it's what we pay local taxes for - more likely the separate road tax (approx. $320 pa).

On the subject of money, my heart skipped a beat this morning (for the wrong reasons) when I checked my online bank account - my but the balance was low. The Elder, on the other hand, must be laughing.  She has 'gone part time' at her workplace, now, because of her recent birthday, receives two pensions from her previous profession(s) and her total net income is about $2000 per month. (Whilst the currency here in the UK is £ (the pound) and is worth bugger all, approximately $2 US, as 'most' (ha!) readers are in the US I display the various expenses, to which I frequently refer, as $ US simply to aid reading.) Where was I? Oh yes.  So The Elder's expenses are probably just under $750 per month. I do not charge #2 but she, to keep her conscience clear, pays The Elder about $300 per month.  This is used, by The Elder, to pay the quarterly electricity bill - the rest is pocketed by The Elder.  I think I will have to review this.

Forgot to mention that I watched, being an old rocker(!), I could say 'swinger' but that could lead to more complicated discussion, I watched part of the 'Glastonbury Festival' - (Google it, if you don't know what it is), and you would have been impressed by the way I moved along with one of the US's best exports being, of course, your very own Neil Diamond - what a performer (Neil, that is, less so myself). Lastly, on these ramblings, I must tell you about the (yet another) chair purchased by The Elder.  It (the chair) is what, I guess, you call an 'executive's office chair' - you know what I mean - suspension, arms, lean back and that sort of stuff.  The thing has to be screwed together and, of course, I didn't bother with the instructions ..... Ends up looking like it should but I keep falling forward and the gas suspension unit is able to be felt, through the seat. Now, I am concerned about these things exploding and if it did and exploded upwards then I fear a 10" steel piston would provide me a sensation that my 'leaning', to date at least, has not wished for. Best sort this out.  Simple solution - just reverse the back / arms and now I fall, naturally, comfortably,  back into the chair and I don't have the worry of a 10" steel rectal invader. However, the steel piston is now further forward, a few inches. You work it out.

No road workers yet (0738) - being British (or more likely Polish anything but British), I guess they must be drinking tea (or whatever they drink in Poland).

Roll on this afternoon.